All or nothing

I didn't want to be loved widely, I wanted to be loved deeply. And isn't this what most of us want to get? It's not about all the love You get during Your life from several people, it's that One Love that matters. And You know The Love when You know it. There isn't a code or something specific to recognize it, when You've find it, You just know that this is it.

I don't actually know the purpose of my blog yet, but as long as I'm figuring it out, I'll just write about things that's going on inside me. How cliche, I know. Well, suck it up or walk away ;)

I think the reason of my today's post is the sad yearn for my Other Half. Even though we live together, the presence is not always enough when You're not actually present. And to miss someone, there has to be something to miss. In this case, there is so much to miss... All the laughs, the mocking, the deep eye contact that says more than enough... These little things that You start to recognize with the other person are the One Love. This is my One Love that matters. No one knows how long something is going to last in life but I am happy to experience the one true adventure of my life right now, right this second.

Yeah, that's about all I want to write down today. I don't even know if someone reads it but hey, it just feels good to write things down. And if someone ever do read it, maybe they can relate.

That feeling

You know the feeling when it seems like everything is on the edge and You just can't take it anymore? But then You sit back, have a cup of coffee and see how incredibly lucky You actually are..

Sometimes I have serious thoughts about running away, this happens when "fuck this shit" is the major thought in my head in every 10 seconds. But hey, life's a Bitch! So suck it up and move on!

I mean, people are always complaining, no matter what they have. Some people live in a mansion that's on the coast of the Mediterranean and they hate their lives because their fucking air conditioner is not working on a hot day. Fuck this! I don't even have an air conditioner. I bought a cheap fan with my boyfriend for the summer and it made the hot days livable. We're just happy we didn't die in heatstroke when it was 30 degrees out there.

So here I am, thinking about all the bullshit a human mind can produce, and I am just laughing. Not because my life is a paradise, far from that. But simply because my mind is not so needy for all the crap I can actually live without. I have a home. I had an apartment but I have a home now. A home with pictures and memories and an amazing man who loves me and a dog. We have a dog. Me and my boyfriend adopted a 2 month old Gereman Boxer called Spike. And He is amazing. They both are- my men <3

I think I made my point clear. No matter how hard it gets, it always gets better. That's how life is. You have a crappy day, You stress about it, You suck it up or let it out and start with a new day with a smile on Your face.