Because small things matter

You are beautiful. Not just from the outside. Not just because you say beautiful words. You are beautiful because you reflect beauty from the inside. You have a beautiful soul.

After 24 years and thousands of people I've met, you have been the only one who has touched my heart truly, madly, deeply. You are like the last set of fireworks on New Years Eve. You are the Grande Finale. No words can describe how much I feel for You. You are like the raindrops from last night I feel on a warm summer morning. Right when I put my bare foot on the freshly cut grass for the first time. You came to my life like a clashing thunder and still, five years later, you create the most powerful storms. Dangerous, bright, beautiful.

You have a sharp intellect and a heart from hell. Your eyes like starfire, staring deep into mine. Taking my every breath away. You know how to love me, when I don't
know how to love myself. You are a mystery. Unpredictable, exciting and always meaningful.

Thank you, for simply being You. Because you are wonderful!

Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.

I will never look at You with anything less than love, grace and respect. No matter the day, no matter the state of mind. I can be mad at something, sometimes even You, yet I still feel nothing less. Not now, not ever.

Isn't it funny how some feelings change like a heeler - at one point you think that this is all you want. This is all you need. And then it flips. Suddenly everything becomes clear. The person you shared your life with, was never more than just a man... just a woman... A wise man from India -OSHO- once said that love against another person is pretty much comparable to flowers. He said: “If you love a flower, don’t pick it up. Because if you pick it up it dies and it ceases to be what you love. So if you love a flower, let it be. Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.” 

See, this is what people tend to forget. The true meaning of love. What it means to give your love to someone. It is not about enchaining the other person to "settle down" with you. It is about setting them free to live their life and to feel loved. And I do mean loved, not possessed. Don't mix them up! Love shouldn't mean to stay calm and spend the rest of your life with one person. Sure, you can share some special things with one person for the rest of your life, but everything else should be supported by the love, encouraged by the love and not forced by the love. 

And don't be so attached to one specific person. I'm sure everybody thinks in their current relationship that he is the person you are going to love forever. The only one. False! You probably already know that you have loved before... "But this one really feels  right..." Don't worry, the next one will feel even better. That's the magical mind game your heart and brain are playing because they can't figure out their own rules. Let's continue with OSHO - a man who might have figured out the Love. "Love makes no conditions, no ifs, no buts. Love never says, "Fulfill these requirements, then I will love you. "Love is like breathing: when it happens you are simply love. It does not matter who comes close to you, the sinner or the saint. Whosoever comes close to you starts feeling the vibe of love, is rejoiced. Love is unconditional giving – but only those are capable of giving who have" (OSHO,  The Guest). You can't control who you fall in love with. All you can control is how are you going to use the love you have to share...

So I will probably look at everybody differently is some amount of time.. because I change. The World changes. You change. Life wouldn't be life if it didn't change at all. It would be a moment. A moment only stays for a moment and then changes when life takes over. This is the way it goes. Expect nothing, experience everything, live in the moment. Be the moment!

It's all inspiration

All or nothing

I didn't want to be loved widely, I wanted to be loved deeply. And isn't this what most of us want to get? It's not about all the love You get during Your life from several people, it's that One Love that matters. And You know The Love when You know it. There isn't a code or something specific to recognize it, when You've find it, You just know that this is it.

I don't actually know the purpose of my blog yet, but as long as I'm figuring it out, I'll just write about things that's going on inside me. How cliche, I know. Well, suck it up or walk away ;)

I think the reason of my today's post is the sad yearn for my Other Half. Even though we live together, the presence is not always enough when You're not actually present. And to miss someone, there has to be something to miss. In this case, there is so much to miss... All the laughs, the mocking, the deep eye contact that says more than enough... These little things that You start to recognize with the other person are the One Love. This is my One Love that matters. No one knows how long something is going to last in life but I am happy to experience the one true adventure of my life right now, right this second.

Yeah, that's about all I want to write down today. I don't even know if someone reads it but hey, it just feels good to write things down. And if someone ever do read it, maybe they can relate.

That feeling

You know the feeling when it seems like everything is on the edge and You just can't take it anymore? But then You sit back, have a cup of coffee and see how incredibly lucky You actually are..

Sometimes I have serious thoughts about running away, this happens when "fuck this shit" is the major thought in my head in every 10 seconds. But hey, life's a Bitch! So suck it up and move on!

I mean, people are always complaining, no matter what they have. Some people live in a mansion that's on the coast of the Mediterranean and they hate their lives because their fucking air conditioner is not working on a hot day. Fuck this! I don't even have an air conditioner. I bought a cheap fan with my boyfriend for the summer and it made the hot days livable. We're just happy we didn't die in heatstroke when it was 30 degrees out there.

So here I am, thinking about all the bullshit a human mind can produce, and I am just laughing. Not because my life is a paradise, far from that. But simply because my mind is not so needy for all the crap I can actually live without. I have a home. I had an apartment but I have a home now. A home with pictures and memories and an amazing man who loves me and a dog. We have a dog. Me and my boyfriend adopted a 2 month old Gereman Boxer called Spike. And He is amazing. They both are- my men <3

I think I made my point clear. No matter how hard it gets, it always gets better. That's how life is. You have a crappy day, You stress about it, You suck it up or let it out and start with a new day with a smile on Your face.